I need to be chastised rather harshly right now.

Dear  Sad and Dramatic Little Teenage Sabrina,

You know what normal people do when they're feeling down? They try and get happy. Did you know that? They don't go into a sneaky hate spiral, they go call their friends or help their mom or hug their puppy or something. You have friends. You have a mom. You may not have a puppy, but that's okay. Kittens are equally if not more adorable. 

But the point is. 

You can't stay sad for petty reasons. Those things may seem big right now, but they DO NOT MATTER. They are a small moment in an infinite amount of beginning-less and endless time. What matters is how you deal with your problems. What matters are the choices you make. Think of how big the universe is. How big are you? Insignificant. You're tiny problem means NOTHING to the universe. Literally. So don't expect it to, okay? These things come and go. They pass. It's LIFE. You're wasting your time flushed and fretting. Think of all the wonderful and meaningful things you could be doing with all this time and breath God gives you EVERY SINGLE DAY. He put that air in your lungs. He put that brain in your head. Are you seriously going to waste that? Because it wasn't created to be wasted. The things you do in this life on earth determine your eternity. Eternity is at stake, Sabrina. Shape up. 

Love, 

Smarter, Healthier, and Happier Sabrina.

:)

I feel like my old self again. Old friends, old routines, old music... I'm loving the familiarity that is my life right now. Don't get me wrong. I love change and without it life would be boring and whatnot and so-on. I've learned quite a lot from the events that took me by surprise and made me think outside of my little happy bubble. But I needed this. Not saying that I'm back in the "happy bubble".  I just needed to be slightly less heartbroken. And a heck of a lot stronger in the gospel. So I have been making goals and plans like I used to, and I'm spending way more time with my family. I've been thinking for myself and writing and drawing. I'm choosing to enjoying life. The people I wanted so badly to be happy are, and I am too. I really hoped it would turn out this way. I shall now...
1. BEG my mom to un-block Grooveshark (again)
2. Experience extreme withdrawal symptoms (foaming at the mouth, refusing food for days on end, etc.) when she says no.
3. Get in my PJ's (pajamas means you're going to bed, PJ's means you're staying up)
4. Brush ma teeth
3. Finish chemistry (gag me with a spoon)
4. Read my scriptures
5. Say my prayers
6. Go to bed. Ish.

(PS, that was A List of Things I Shall Now Do)

I like fall break.

I got an idea for a song while drying my hair. So I ran to the computer (hair still damp) and started typing. Then the ideas just keep coming and coming, and before I knew it, I had these lyrics on my screen. Lots of pent up creative energy has to come out sometime, I guess. I've been so busy with school and whatnot that I haven't done anything like this in a while. Felt great. :) Here are the lyrics:

You cut my hair in the foreboding pre-dawn

And in the dimness, I looked at the ground

The snip and slice of scissors laced my neck

Thought to myself, “I’ll have to wear scarves now”

You shaped my soul in the feathery white trees

And my lungs were altered in alien ways

You sank in freezing water, and took me with you

Now this heaving cold won’t go away

It’s too early to be up this late

And I can’t, no I can’t swallow

Cough and wheeze my heart out

I cough and wheeze my heart out

I’ve got this sickness 

That I can’t sleep through

You bumped the snow in the bright white midnight

And came knocking at my door too late

Tried the knob, but it had frozen over

It said... “Too early to be up this late."

The sun’s too bright

For my indoor eyes

And the snow’s so bright, it could melt

Yeah, the moon’s so bright

In my pale blue eyes

Yeah, the snow’s so bright

Don’t fall in!

Cause you’ll put angels on the ground

It’s too early to be up this late

And I can’t, no I can’t swallow

Cough and wheeze my heart out

I cough and wheeze my heart out

I’ve got this sickness 

That I can’t sleep through

YAWN

I'm tired. I've been up doing homework for a while. But I just like getting it done well. Making it look good. You know. For health, I had to write a children's book about healthy living. And man, is it cute! Can't wait until we get to read them to the little kids in the daycare center. :) But I just need to go to bed now. UGH jk I have to finish that chemistry project. Do you have any idea how much I do not care about ATOMS? I seriously do not give a french toast. But whatever. Gotta learn stuff. So I can go to collage. And help my poor kids with THEIR homework. Hah.. I should stop typing now. Because I want to say a LOT of things. A LOT. And I would type into the wee hours of the morning if I could. But alas. Homework. Ugh. Bye.

PS, I can't wait for the future. My future. I'm so excited. I want to do so many things.

Today was kind of really awesome...

I was at school from 7 o' clock in the morning to 11:30 PM.
I AM SO FREAKING TIRED.
But I had a lot of fun today. Felt like myself. AAAAAND we won our game. Hallelujah. I am going to pass out on my bed now. Night.

PS, here is me and my best friend. This is the fun we had today. Stuff. The end.

I am a fantastic list maker.

I love being a Miamaid... I almost never want to turn 16 ever. Laurels seems kind of.. boringish. But of course I'm gonna turn 16. But anyway.
Today in our Miamaid lesson, we each made a list of qualities we want our future husband to have.
Now I love lists as you might know. And so I was thrilled.
I have even done this activity before in young women's, and had never really been that excited about it. But this time, in like 20 minutes, I had over 40 things on my list.
I usually am not like that.. it takes me a while to think of things like that on the spot.
(Which is part of the reason why The Cute List is still under construction. That and my laziness.) But I guess this list was an easy one.
Maybe I'll post the List of Qualities of My Awesome Future Husband later. But right now my mother is cooking bacon. I can tell, because the house suddenly smells awesome. This is a rarity, so I am going to dash down the stairs now and dance around the kitchen. While eating bacon. ...Bye.

Megan.

"Don't put my name on the Internet, it's dangerous."
"No, I am not even kidding."
"I suspect kyleigh.."
"Hehe I'll tell you when you're 50 hehe"
"Ssssssssss"
"Ssssssssssab."
"Are you gonna wright that down, huh?"
"Dad said that I sound like a walrus... Or a seal..."
"Ssssssssssunny."
"My earrs arre pieeeerrced"
"...It's a t."
"I like the white hairs on my arms.. They make me look tanner."
"Heeheehee Tanner. Toupe."
"Want me to iron your pants?"
"Ssssssssssabbyrina."
"Nooowuh!"

Now you know what a silly little girl my sister is.