:)

I feel like my old self again. Old friends, old routines, old music... I'm loving the familiarity that is my life right now. Don't get me wrong. I love change and without it life would be boring and whatnot and so-on. I've learned quite a lot from the events that took me by surprise and made me think outside of my little happy bubble. But I needed this. Not saying that I'm back in the "happy bubble".  I just needed to be slightly less heartbroken. And a heck of a lot stronger in the gospel. So I have been making goals and plans like I used to, and I'm spending way more time with my family. I've been thinking for myself and writing and drawing. I'm choosing to enjoying life. The people I wanted so badly to be happy are, and I am too. I really hoped it would turn out this way. I shall now...
1. BEG my mom to un-block Grooveshark (again)
2. Experience extreme withdrawal symptoms (foaming at the mouth, refusing food for days on end, etc.) when she says no.
3. Get in my PJ's (pajamas means you're going to bed, PJ's means you're staying up)
4. Brush ma teeth
3. Finish chemistry (gag me with a spoon)
4. Read my scriptures
5. Say my prayers
6. Go to bed. Ish.

(PS, that was A List of Things I Shall Now Do)

I like fall break.

I got an idea for a song while drying my hair. So I ran to the computer (hair still damp) and started typing. Then the ideas just keep coming and coming, and before I knew it, I had these lyrics on my screen. Lots of pent up creative energy has to come out sometime, I guess. I've been so busy with school and whatnot that I haven't done anything like this in a while. Felt great. :) Here are the lyrics:

You cut my hair in the foreboding pre-dawn

And in the dimness, I looked at the ground

The snip and slice of scissors laced my neck

Thought to myself, “I’ll have to wear scarves now”

You shaped my soul in the feathery white trees

And my lungs were altered in alien ways

You sank in freezing water, and took me with you

Now this heaving cold won’t go away

It’s too early to be up this late

And I can’t, no I can’t swallow

Cough and wheeze my heart out

I cough and wheeze my heart out

I’ve got this sickness 

That I can’t sleep through

You bumped the snow in the bright white midnight

And came knocking at my door too late

Tried the knob, but it had frozen over

It said... “Too early to be up this late."

The sun’s too bright

For my indoor eyes

And the snow’s so bright, it could melt

Yeah, the moon’s so bright

In my pale blue eyes

Yeah, the snow’s so bright

Don’t fall in!

Cause you’ll put angels on the ground

It’s too early to be up this late

And I can’t, no I can’t swallow

Cough and wheeze my heart out

I cough and wheeze my heart out

I’ve got this sickness 

That I can’t sleep through